I whore all day long some days. Yesterday was one of them. By that I mean I am selling my wares in a way that feels repetitive and soul-less. I am not writing my novel all day. Or blogging. Or doing what I might really want to be doing. I pimp, too, by making others do what I need them to do, even when they don't really want to. Usually it's fine.
But some days are harder than others. Yesterday I had to say a couple of times, "Yes, xxx, you are absolutely right. This is about my pimping you and in turn your pimping yy. But it's what we have to do. We need XXX."
Don't get me wrong: I love what I do. I say Yes to people and tell them what they need to hear. I help them tell other people what they need to hear. It's very gratifying to see people get what they want.
How do you whore?
I help my kids pay rent sometimes. I help my brother navigate the criminal justice system. (I fail sometimes.) I clean my parents' house. But that's not whoring. It's being codependent. Days when I'm feeling like a whore, I might be more prone to codependency. Maybe it's like, "I'm already compromised. I might as well spread the wealth and excessively caretake everyone I know."
Speaking of codependency, Erin Markey is fucking hilarious. She made me feel better. She's here from NY to perform for only two weekends as part of the Film Society's KinoTek series. I laughed so hard I'm sore. In the performance she has a skype conversation between a mother and a daughter, playing both of them. It's utterly fascinating. Of course I identified with both characters. She's a very talented singer with an insane sense of humor. The Sondheimish songs with choruses like "Make Me Full Screen" are maybe hit and miss, but she succeeds at striking a tone that is simultaneously loving and bitterly sardonic. In the banter she ventures into some of the most mundane family turf, murky as ever and so, so familiar. She pivots between characters so artfully it's astonishing. Did I mention she's gorgeous? There's something about her, it's not self-mocking but self-aware, that makes makes me double up. You've GOT to read the great article by Michelle Tea. She says it much better than I could. Watch some of the videos. If you are in the Bay Area, GO SEE ERIN MARKEY.
But some days are harder than others. Yesterday I had to say a couple of times, "Yes, xxx, you are absolutely right. This is about my pimping you and in turn your pimping yy. But it's what we have to do. We need XXX."
Don't get me wrong: I love what I do. I say Yes to people and tell them what they need to hear. I help them tell other people what they need to hear. It's very gratifying to see people get what they want.
How do you whore?
I help my kids pay rent sometimes. I help my brother navigate the criminal justice system. (I fail sometimes.) I clean my parents' house. But that's not whoring. It's being codependent. Days when I'm feeling like a whore, I might be more prone to codependency. Maybe it's like, "I'm already compromised. I might as well spread the wealth and excessively caretake everyone I know."
Speaking of codependency, Erin Markey is fucking hilarious. She made me feel better. She's here from NY to perform for only two weekends as part of the Film Society's KinoTek series. I laughed so hard I'm sore. In the performance she has a skype conversation between a mother and a daughter, playing both of them. It's utterly fascinating. Of course I identified with both characters. She's a very talented singer with an insane sense of humor. The Sondheimish songs with choruses like "Make Me Full Screen" are maybe hit and miss, but she succeeds at striking a tone that is simultaneously loving and bitterly sardonic. In the banter she ventures into some of the most mundane family turf, murky as ever and so, so familiar. She pivots between characters so artfully it's astonishing. Did I mention she's gorgeous? There's something about her, it's not self-mocking but self-aware, that makes makes me double up. You've GOT to read the great article by Michelle Tea. She says it much better than I could. Watch some of the videos. If you are in the Bay Area, GO SEE ERIN MARKEY.
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