Monday, April 22, 2013

Last day in Cerritos


Yesterday: Lovely morning of meditation, reading, long walk north along the dirt roads with Carolen and Milo the dog. Met Wind and the kids at Baja Beans and sat in the shade of the mango grove eating gorgeous baked goods and frittatas and sipping coffee. We moseyed back to the compound and I let myself into my room, thought I'd check email before heading to the beach.

The first thing I noticed was that my bedside drawer was open. Then I scanned the room for my laptop.The black cord was not plugged in. The bed was unmade, so Cheppie had not been there.

My phone is not on the counter. The screen is pushed open, the window is ajar. We've been ripped off.

Before I had a chance to panic, I thought, "It's all in the cloud." I would only lose the 785 pictures that I hadn't yet backed up to PhotoStream. Shit. It doesn't matter. I turn - my drawers are all open. I rummage through my lingerie and find my wallet where I'd hidden it, and my passport. Okay then. I can still get home.

I walk out to my balcony. Wind is walking out of the restaurant looking alarmed. "I was ripped off," I say calmly.

"Yeah, they got our phones."

Somehow, when I left for the walk two hours before, after meditating, it hadn't occurred to me to recheck all the window latches and hide my laptop and phone out of view. Now I was already letting them go. They were gone.

Long and insane story short...Grayson (9) and I went to get the police in the nearby town (no phones). The police station in Pescadero was closed (Sunday?), but Gray directed me to picked up Feffo and his sister Brenda at the billiard hall, who were able to reach their auntie Carmen who knows the police in Todos Santos, and they came right away. They helped Wind catch five teenage kids from La Paz that were camping on the beach and who had been robbing people all morning. The police arrested them and miraculously recovered all of our stuff.

The amazing thing for me is that I did not get upset during any of this. I truly thought, Oh well. That stuff is gone. And when they caught the kids and I saw my laptop and iphone get stuffed into a duffel bag and leave with the Mexican police, I still thought, Oh well. I've already said good-bye to those things.

Today was all about observing the grinding wheels of justice in Mexico (with little attachment to the outcome - none of us wanted the kids to go to jail). The Todos Santos concrete block "police station" did not exactly inspire confidence...A funeral service calendar dangled on a string from a curtain rod, advertising "Servicios 24 horas per dia 365 dias per ano." Just to give you an idea. Rusty Soviet-era filing cabinets that looked like they hadn't been opened in decades. A dusty bouquet of artificial flowers buried among files and boxes in total disarray. A decorative owl next to a ski mask. An oxygen tank. A stainless steel sink leaning against the window.

Police officials slowly took down our statements, all separately, typing them in ALL CAPS. After hours of amusedly watching the busy officials hunt and peck onto the ancient keyboard to get all the stories exactly right, I realized they were just talking to each other telling our story the way they interpreted it, in first person as though they'd been there themselves. I thought I'd get up. I asked where the bathroom was. "No sirve." (Doesn't work.) So I held it.

I let Grayson sit on my lap and we played goofy games, Carolen and Wind and Amelia (11) and I quietly smiling at the absurdity of it all. I finished a book and read an entire New Yorker. I stayed amused the entire time. Maybe a little bored at times, but mostly amazed. I tried not to think, "This is how I'm spending my last day in Mexico."

The officials kept at it with admirable diligence for, no lie, three hours, so five hours in total including the wait outside, and finally we heard the squeal of the tractor-feed printer churning out our statements in carbon triplicate on official looking dot-matrix letterhead. The wheels of justice were in fact turning, they were just a little gummed up by the carbon triplicates. Then they had us sign every single page (each carbon copy so three times per seven page statement times maybe three each- my hand was actually aching - more signatures than a mortgage). Who knows where those files went?

And here I am, less than 48 hours later writing on my laptop, Skyping, listening to Devendra Banhart on Spotify.


Me and Amelia, glad to be back in Cerritos.

"Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings." - Elizabeth Gilbert

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Pescadero

Mexico. It has a way of washing away things that seemed so serious back in San Francisco. Like having a job. Or not having one.

Things move more slowly here. You take the long way without calculating all the minutes you are losing, because...where are you going anyway? You are going somewhere, it will be beautiful; it is beautiful here, so what is the rush? You are on a dusty dirt road that is also very bumpy and maybe going faster would not be a good thing.

What's even better is not going anywhere. Because it is so spectacular right here looking out at the blue Pacific, then walking right into it without a wetsuit. It's scours your lungs and your soul and you feel baptized.

I am eating like the Queen of Baja Sur. My chef friend Carolen and her husband Wind feed me things they grow in their organic garden...massaged kale or papaya and avocado salads, and bouillabaisse with shrimp and yellowtail from local fisherpeople (?). I order food when I am hungry. I make myself one margarita per day. A big one, with fresh limes and oranges. I eat an avocado custard thing with pomegranate molasses for dessert. Yeah.

I take long walks along the empty beach and swim in the perfectly cool ocean to work up an appetite for the next incredible meal.

The season is over. Gringos are mostly gone or somberly packing up to head north for the summer. It's very quiet, but now I hear a lonesome voice over an electric guitar echoing in the distance. The night is black and the stars are outrageous.

I've finished Wild by Cheryl Strayed (recommend), and am deep into a What Maisie Knew by Henry James (don't recommend; see the movie instead on Opening Night of the SFIFF April 25 at the Castro). I'm so worn out from all this that I'm sleeping 10 hours a night. Or am I worn out from year upon endless year of working for nonprofits?

It's been a long time since I've slept without earplugs to block out meth freaks or otherwise deranged and damaged souls talking to themselves outside my window in SF. It's been so long since I've done exactly what I want to do for days on end.

I feel my mind emptying out, and it is good.

Tomorrow I will refill my mind with how to upload pictures for you from my f-ing Chromebook that stores nothing. It is like my mind. In the cloud.